Caregiver- Brain Cancer (Glioblastoma)
Twist on Cancer: I learned just how fast cancer can take the love of your life away. In a mere week, David went from “you have a brain tumor” to death. We were planners, so we planned the steps out but never got to them. To this day, I am still so glad we were planners and talked so much about our future. I was 12 weeks pregnant with our second child when we lost him. Thankfully, we had already talked names and many other major decisions making it just a little easier on me doing it without him. I can still hear him telling me “I support you and your decision” anytime I must make one now.
I love looking for signs from David, and the biggest one I received was when the St. Louis Blues won the Stanley Cup for the first time - three months after he passed. He was a huge Blues fan and when he passed I promised to do my best raising our then 2- year-old son to follow in his footsteps, even while living in Chicago! It felt like this was his way of telling me he was alright and I finally took a breath for the first time in months.
I not only lost my husband that day, but also lost so much of myself. Life doesn't always turn out the way you want or plan but I am thankful for the moments he gave me and the memories I will always cherish.